Lost In Beauty-

Friday, July 22, 2005

dammit... i get ur feelings now.. jas.. cos my blog.. just kana erase away.. damit!!!!!!!!! cos i dun press wad la.. now must retype again.. i type so much lei.. idiot.... soooooo much!!!!! nvm.. i gt time.. haha... dun care... gona type all again.....

Start.... todae finallly finish test lo... din update for so long le.. 2 weeks ba.. hehe.. cos one week is study break... then exam week le.. mi busy study... so din update blog lo.. hehe.. NAh.. AS IF.. who will belive mi?? haha... oh ya.. gona tok cok alot.. since i so damn free.. hope not gona erase all again.. if gona retype again.. i gona cry... gona gona gona.... i put so many gona...

hmm.. test.. eh.. CMA... gona fail.. hope i can pass.. 50 will do.. just pass.. plss.... cos tat lecturer and tutor sux!! haha.. =p hrm... eh.. okok lo.. think can pass.. hehe.. study one hr for it nia.. cos no mood to study.. hehe.. then FMGT.. my most confidence sub.. hehe.. hope i can get 60 somthing.. then i happy.. hehe.. then blaw.. sian diao.. loss 27 marks le.. nvm.. still can get 73.. AS IF.. haha.. hope can get 60 something lo.. but think is impossible le.. haiz.. din reli study hard for it lo.. haha.. study todae then todae test... altogether study blaw for 3 hrs like tta.. haha

oh... just now i gt tok about a news... infact 2 news... one is huang na... finally tat ah hao kept silence.. =p which i see is tat he admit tat he kill her le.. arrr... he better sentence to death.. cos he so cruel... kill a small ger ger.. haizz.. then todae... i mean ytd.. gt one 4 yr old ger fall down from her flat... hmm.. cos her ah mah was drinking coffe down stairs and when she wake up.. she cant find anyone.. so she go look outside the window and fall off.. haizz... when the aunties tat send their child to sch.. saw the body.. they tot it was a broken doll lo.. then no one gave it any attention.. until one philippine auntie that is sending her son to sch saw it.. she was scare to death lo.. keep having nightmares about it.. hmm.. if it was mi.. i gona scare until like siao... wont even dare to sleep or stay in a dark place... haizz.. tat ger so poor thing... haizz...

oh.. my cousin.. say she gona buy her own hse when she was 35 yrs old.. tat means.. she is not going to get married.. haha.. funny.. think i gona follow her also.. hehe... cos living by urself is gd.. plus i wont get married.. cos i dun even wanna go out alone with guys.. hhaa... so i also wanna buy a hse near the sea.. i mean.. can see the sea.. hehe.. then i can sit near the window there.. and watch the sunset.. so romantic... hehe.... then my door is gona be white.. then marble floor.. then white curtain... haha.. cos white seems nice.. but hor.. i so lazy.. later white become black le.. haha.. but.. mayb i will be more hardworking to clean the hse.. hehe.. cos its my own dearie hse.. hehe... now i scare le.. keep press Save As Draft button.. hehe... anyway.. like i said to jh.. tat i hope we (jh jas hc kx and mi) can live together.. but hor... think it wont come true.. haha.. cos hor.. they gona get marrie some day.. then surely they gona move out ma.. haizz.. then left mi alone... so then.. better i just live alone at first lo.. haha... but hor.. live alone abit eerie.. haha.. cos i scare at nite.. then er.. the "dirty things".. hehe.. i m a coward.. =p hope someday it will come true.. hehe..

oh ya.. bro coming home later.. haha.. been wanting to see whether he has change anot.. din see him for 2 weeks le.. haha.. he better be thiner.. orelse...... =p

sometimes.. i duno wad i m thinking.. think i gona be a loner.. haha.. so stupid.. i crave for attention so much during sec... but now.. i dun crave for it le.. haha.. i crave for peaceful life.. haha... duno y also.. hmm... my onli friends are onli my gang in sec sch.. then my relationship with my class now okok onli.. haha.. hmm.. my dearie friend idhzuan.. haizz.. duno how to say also.. he gt so much probs.. and i cant help him.. haizz... then.. i also duno wad to say to him le.. in msn i din msg him.. cos in the end.. we gona tok about the same things.. which is his probs.. and his probs are almost the same thing lo.. when i console him.. i dun even get convince myself.. how can i convince him??? funny.. think mayb i m too lazy to care for him.. or i said.. all my friends.. mayb i m born to be a loner... haiz... but i dun wanna leave my friends too.. m i just too selfish??

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