Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

eh.. so many days din update le.. cos i m busy.. hha.. and lazy.. anyway.. think now no ppl see my blog le.. but nvm.. tis is just a place for mi to "fa fa lao sao" hehe...

hmm.. actually wanna study ytd.. in the end.. i din.. now also.. haha.. wanna blog first.. then study... cham le lo.. anyway.. i tok about sch first.. hmm.. tat ecd report... sian diao.. i fought with teresa about it.. then now.. i m through with her.. she so the wad lo... then after the ecd presentation she told the tutor she wanna work alone.. after we go out of the classroom... sian diao.. she suppose to do the financial plan lo.. and she din do well.. then she think she is not in the wrong.. and argue with mi.. but hor... when teacher ask who do the financial plan.. she dun dare to say its her... COWARD.... =p anyway.. she so funny.. if she work alone.. she still must present the financial plan lo.. but when she grp with us.. she say she duno how to do.. tats funny... so i say her din put enough effort.. not duno how to do... wahhaa... tats wad she always tell us when we say we duno... =p btw.. i just wanna her to apologised to mi lo... but she wont.. so i wont forgive her.. until she apologise to mi.. hmm.. anyway... we redo the financial plan.. and hand in on fri.. but tat damn tutor say not gd... then fail fail fail.. i listen till sian diao.. he ask rena to call mi.. then he like scolding mi lo... and ask us to redo everything and hand in on mon...

hmm... my ah gong is hospitalized again.. now reali is cancer sia.. damn... bone marrow cancer... i hope he will be heal soon.. if not.. i reli gona cry.. though i m not really close to him.. he speak hokkien lo.. but i dun.. i onli know a little nia.. so its quite diff to listen and communicate with him.. hmm.. tat fri.. suppose to go see ah gong... anwyay.. i always go acc papa to see ah gong.. hmm.. ya fri... tat damn ecd teacher call.. say redo.. so fri i din go.. and i was rushing through tat damn project.. hmm.. then on sun.. my fourth aunt say to mi," ger ah... u finish ur project already??" and i was like ya.. i finish... of cos.. if not i wont be at my ah ma hse rite?? but i din say la.. i onli say ya... hmm.. she sounds like i lied so that i can dun go see ah gong lo.. hmm.. i was abit piss off.. but hor.. since she is my aunt.. i wont tok back... so i wont be disrespectful.. oh.. anyway.. ytd when to see ah gong... i almost everyday go see him.. hmm.. he look abit better.. but hor.. still beri think.. papa told mi he is onli 37kg sia... so shock... but hor.. he is getting abit fatter la.. abit nia.. oh... he is not in the incubation room..(duno i spell correctly anot) yup.. we had to wear mask b4 going in lo.. anwyay.. though i dun reli unedrstand wad ah gong say.. i reli enjoy seeing him.. and the time i spend with him.. hehe.. hmm.. think ah ma is abit jealous.. cos all of us keep goin to see him.. anyway.. tats y on sun.. wei ask mi to acc them go see ah gong.. but i dun go.. cos wanna stay at ah ma hse ma.. acc ah ma.. and ah ma hse is like quite deserted lo.. cos they are all at hospital there..

oh.. anyway.. i m quite stress la... mayb i think.. i dun think my life is going beri smoothly.. and i cant make it smooth.. hmm.. i remmeber papa told mi when we are on the way to see ah gong.. he say he dun understand y i study business.. and he think business dun suit mi.. cos i m not open enough for it.. eh.. i admit.. but i cant change lo.. duno y also.. haiz... i think i m a useless person... i hope i just perish.. into the thin air.. anyway.. if i do.. nobody will notice it also.. i dun wanna comit sucide cos its reli painful and scary... and mayb i will go to 18th level hell if i do it.. arrr.... sian diao...

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